meaningless ..?

I'm starting to feel the strains of becoming a hermit. I've broken down countless times and I don't want to continue this way. As I've blogged so many times about being lonely, I've finally decided that sometimes it's better to let go of the past as there are new possibilities in the future. Looking at it all now, I've come to terms that I am going to lose all my friends I made in high school sooner than later. It's sad, but I need to learn that real friends are always there for one another - not just to go 'clubbing' or last minute invites. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I am looking at this in a bigger picture. If I am not worth calling then why should I make the effort and contact you? Ahhh... petty I know but it's how I roll ;D Although I am saying all this now, it does not mean that I don't want to see/talk to anyone. There are a limited few that I can sincerely count as friends but it's a shame that I never connected with them as much as I did with those I saw on an almost day to day basis. Hmm.. I have no idea where this is going, but hopefully I am able to make new friends this year at uni and not make the same mistakes I've made in the past.