It's been about a yr and a bit now that i stopped (        ). Every single day has been a struggle to just not think about it but tonight the urge has come back tenfold. I'm probably going to do something that I'll regret in the next 24hrs but i don't know. i'm shaking and i'm being stupid. fuck. 




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its been hard trying to smile this past few week. i thought i'd be fine, i've always been able to fake my emotions but i don't know why this is different. i've been just really down, i've hardly slept, hardly eaten and hardly spoken to anyone. i want to scream, break something, lock myself in my room - i want to be alone. i need to get over this asap, i wasn't the one who got their heart broken but why does it feel that way? i wish i wasn't so stupid, so naive, so ... urgh. i'll be fine soon, hopefully.

Stop calling, stop calling I don't wanna talk anymore ..

^ is that how that song goes? O____O

HAHAH I think people should just give up on calling me. I don't answer my phone. Why? I hate the way my voice sounds on the other line. Yes, vain but it's embarrassing to say the least sooo just leave me a msg or something (: Pluuuuuuuuuus... no awkward silent moments, nah means :D

HE'S SO CUTE (:

Seriously, screw boys! I'm moving on to strictly girls .. .daaaayum ;D

I think I got complemented at work by one of our regulars today O_________O

Do I hear Sexy Back?

So I'm on the way to work right now draining my phone battery as I write this but meh. I hate this new system, it takes at least 20min more to get to town grrr that means earlier wake ups :( I really cbf doing this for 4months but at least we'll get a better rail system ... right? And also, by having buses at least the doors won't close on me like Vy LOL good times :) Hahah so bored, ignore this post please I have nothing better to rant about xD

hope this isn't big font O_O

I'm falling way too hard.

THIS WASN'T MEANT TO HAPPEN!