Hopeless romantic ):

Love. Love is such a powerful word that can be used in so many ways. I love him, I love that new band, I love rain. It has no special meaning to me. I've seen it used so many times and it just gets thrown back at the user like it was a piece of garbage. Although I've never fallen in love, I can't see the point to be in a relationship when all you do is argue. I know that in all relationships there will be ups and downs, but to see a person go through so many downs in all the relationships they have had is not what I want to go through. I've seen this person get kicked to the curb so many times with their bags, get beat up by their 'significant' other, get the ring he worked so hard to buy her get squashed by a plier etc. I've always felt sorry for this person because they have never been able to have a stable relationship and have never truly been loved for who they are and are always expected to do better. If love makes me hate myself and go into an endless bout of depression - I don't want to go through it. 

Love is fleeting, it doesn't last. You think it will but it can be suddenly taken away for the smallest reason, stupidest excuse. How many times have the words 'It's not you, it's me' been used? Don't get me wrong, I'm a true romantic. I believe in being courted, the stolen glances, brief touches. I can't see myself rushing into relationships and unfortunately for me, the experiences I've gone through with family members have shown me that not all romances end up like the ones you see in fairy tales. The guy that decides to be with me -whether for a week, month, year or a lifetime - will have to be a special bitch xD

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