Dedicated to the skank I call Belinda (:

Belinda T. Met you in yr8, thought you were a nut job. I was the quiet, shy one who sat in the corner and avoided speaking to people at all cost. You were the outgoing, 'tb' who I thought was too out there and loud for me to be around. We didn't really talk straight away...I think I ignored you for the first half of the year until you started approaching Karen and me. I don't know how, but I immediately found myself talking to you even though we were polar opposites. I remember you coming up to me one day asking if I liked 'The Beautiful People,' of course being the Marilyn Manson fan I was at the time I jumped at you and said 'YES!' It was from that point that we developed a relationship, although not strong it was the beginning of a lasting friendship.

The next year we were yr9's and in different homerooms. That didn't stop us from talking and messing around. I had come out of my shell by the end of yr8 and was starting to talk more and actually show my feelings. 2006 was also a year of firsts for me - first time I took sticker photos, first time I went to China town, first time I went to Le'Cidos. They're all memorable times because I did them with you. Do you remember going ice skating? I was wearing my Marilyn Manson t-shirt that my mother didn't know I had. We went to your house and you cut my hair...I remember the hairdresser asking me later, 'Who cut your hair, you're layers are so uneven?' Me *points to you* xD...later I had to stuff my t-shirt in my bag. In the end my mum found it and God knows what she did with it.   

Yr10 was the worst year for me. Things were happening at home and I was hardly at school. I went through ups and downs with close friends but whether I only went to school 3/5 days a week, you were always there to help me out. A sad thing is that I don't really remember yr10. A good memory though was retreat. You, Karen and I were to share a teepee, but when we got there we found out that no one had set it up for us. In the end Karen and I shared a bed and you were the lucky ass who got to sleep by yourself. Hmm...that year I also lost a friend. You know who I'm talking about, probably one of the closest friends I had apart from you and a few others. But I guess what made me not her miss her as much as I should've was you taking my mind off it and showing me that I did have better friends that cared for me even though I wasn't aware of it. 

Last year was better for me. We had all matured, I had my L's =P Yr11 brought more challenges, harder subjects, me opening up more to you. I remember the days when we used to go to Gloria Jeans on Hindley St. I'd get some random drink whilst you would order Irish Nut Creme with caramel. We'd sit in our corner and bitch and gossip about OLSHies, boys, family and anything we could think of. Those were the days (: Yet through all the happiness I went through, I don't know if you noticed that I had started to become withdrawn - old habits die hard right? I didn't go to retreat and now that I think back to it, I should've gone. The reason I didn't go - I had a specialist apt. It was a waste of time and after I went I came out depressed. This probably isn't the place where I should write this but meh. 

By the end of the 2008 I had started to get better and you surprised me on NYE by coming over and spending a whole day together. Sure we stayed in my room playing 'Hungry Hungry Hippos' and went to the park but it was a fun day that I'd never forget. But that can't be said for you I guess. Not 1hr later you called me telling me that you and Peter were over. You have no idea how hard it was for me to stay at home and not be able to do anything that night. I wanted to be with you guys that night, have fun but traditions are a bitch xD I see now that you've found someone else who loves you (no not me ;D) and that makes me happy =D

2009. Yr12. Reunited. LOL yes, finally together in the same homerooms. It would be The Three Musketeers back together. Yet as fun as that sounded we started the year off rocky and awkward. I guess I couldn't forget what happened on my birthday. It wasn't much but that night was supposed to be a good one yet I couldn't stop thinking about what happened in China Town. Temper tantrum Bee? The year progressed and although we seemed to have a good relationship, I started drifting and began to do naughty things (yes you know what I'm talking about). I was hardly at school and we barely saw each other. By retreat I had had enough and confronted you. Basically that was the end to the awkwardness and it showed me how powerful our friendship is. Fast forward to today. Our new hang out is Fasta Pasta or anywhere with food. We still bitch and gossip and of course talk about boys. I bring up the subject about how picky I am, and you agree listing off everything I'm picky about. 

LOL I wrote this in a letter I was supposed to send to you: Don’t feel bad about yourself. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL NO MATTER WHAT. You have a wonderful personality and can make anyone laugh no matter what stupid thing comes out of your mouth =P. I always say -I don’t know why I’m friends with you- but I do and it’s because you are the most caring, friendly, adoring, SPECIAL-IST person out there. You look out for me and I know that you’ll always be there to lend a shoulder to cry on. I can’t see my future without you being there, plus remember our plans? Your kid will hook up with mine and that would make us family. HAHAH can you imagine that? But yeah back to the point don’t ever bring yourself down. There are plenty of guys out there and they will all love you no matter what because that’s what love is supposed to be, loving someone unconditionally and not caring about their flaws. Yeah, I can see myself being a romantic too =|. (Dated 6th of Jan 09)

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