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I don't know why I'm feeling like this. I know I shouldn't but I just can't go back to being the person that I used to be. 

Too many things have happened in my life and it's hard to forget them all and start over. I've realised that I'm never going to be that happy person I was back then, now it's all fake smiles when all I really want to do is ignore the world just as it ignores me. 

LOL I don't even know why I have the urge to write this, better out than in .. right?

I've just had enough of putting up a facade that's been up for 3 years, it was better when I never showed what I felt or even talked to others about my problems.

But it seems that I don't even know what my problem is. Probably just a phase of self hatred caused by disappointment I see every time I look at my parents faces. 

And now I have to deal with other people talking about me. I don't even know what I've done to cause this, but someone out there needs to grow balls. Right now I hate you soo much that if I do see you, I won't hesitate to turn away or walk past. Our friendship is over until you can admit to what you've done and had people say about me and my family. 

There is soo much on my mind right now that it's not worth thinking about. School is just another worry that everyone has, I shouldn't think that I'm the only loser having difficulties when I know that everyone is under pressure. Thanks Yr 12 -.-

I think I should stop my emo rant now before I do start slashing my wrists. 

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