its been hard trying to smile this past few week. i thought i'd be fine, i've always been able to fake my emotions but i don't know why this is different. i've been just really down, i've hardly slept, hardly eaten and hardly spoken to anyone. i want to scream, break something, lock myself in my room - i want to be alone. i need to get over this asap, i wasn't the one who got their heart broken but why does it feel that way? i wish i wasn't so stupid, so naive, so ... urgh. i'll be fine soon, hopefully.